Sunday, August 27, 2006
1:47 PM

.:Todae is borin:.
Im updating tis blog early...i dun knoe why but im feeling guilty...im with Yana right now...but i feel sumone is jelous....i wanna patch back with her but ive got rejected.....well i dun mind...
shes the only one i had...i'll still love her... _ _ _ _ i'll still love you no matter wat..sorry if i ever said mean things to you.....i didnt mean it...but i was hurt by you and ive got my report and it seems it doesnt get any better...ive made no changes...i will love her no matter wat..im dying for her love...i'll die with no regrets....shes will always be by my side...i came back with Yana as i feel guilty i broke her heart once..so im putting it back to her......i must tell her badly...i rather die then losing her....i knoe deep down inside i wont be left out...she care about me but she wont hurt others....well i cant hide her anymore...i know you guys know who i love and who i care....its her who have touched me deeply....its a life wasted for not meeting her early....i wish all tis was a bad dream tat i could hide behind it...ive drop so many tears jus to be with her....i wont give up so easily....i want her to be mine....i wont hurt her ever....i'll make her happy with me....i'll do anything jus to be with her..
i wished you were here by my side....i try to show you how much i care but it never get to tis song.....i so sick of the tention...i feel a bit insecure when ur not here....when ur here i've never had a doubt..your the only person tat i got....

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Saturday, August 26, 2006
5:41 PM

todae was fcuking boring...i woke up early at around 6.30am...open msn and sum of my bros in Aus and NY were online...so good siah...finally get to chat with them...but they log off in 30 mins...miss em' mush......long time never chat..they have ben busy with the companies....
i guess left me alone at singapore...its a mistake coming here...well im jus glad tat i aint tat important to fren,family and other people...theyve biased me once and they did it again...jus glad tat i am a useless idiot...ive been living along with all these paranoids...cant stand it much longer..
Ops report still the same...mondae got camp...miss all my fren and families...i think they will be glad when im gone....im happy also but sad to leave my frens...

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weee...todae damm fun siah....after skool i follow Hasif go to the skool carpark..those lilttle sec 1 say there got ghost...we go there and jus look around only...actually we wanted to smoke...
when at there...one gurl kena possessed siah..so lame.....she keep staring at the wall...then she ask tis guy to seek forgiveness from this wall....so fcuking lame....after all tat Hasif and me left for MLCC....at MLCCwe joke about tat gurl kena possesed...the whole MLCC laugh....
i cant control myself...i even laugh untill tears siah....those gurl are really lame siah...those sec 1 gurls have no brain.....Bring shame only to the Acad peeps...at MLCC we dance and elarn a new step.....the gurls climb over us....so funny....Maisarah step voer my head more then thrice....
she step on my head,hold my head and she even kick my head...my head is like a kicking head..
more likely to be a soccer ball...i was damms cared siah..Maisarah keep moving....im afraid she would fall....so i hold her legs tight tight...later she fall her head gone...lolx...she almost fall the second time....lucky i move back and grab her body...and the supporter grab hold fo her...if not she would have fall and *piang* Flat like PizzaRoo....lolx...she quite heavy according to my weight..but ive to try sumthing...i cant say No to anything...must try....HaHaks...Maisarah if ur reading tis im srry siah about yesterdae....i cant stop laughin when u fall....srry arh....

tats all peeps...take care

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Thursday, August 24, 2006
6:28 PM

weeeesss....todae after skool had to go for mlaay classes with cikgu mariah...then we go cosmix to our malay research...borin siah....after tat wiat for irah to go home with her...while waiting for her i saw ikah so i went with ikah,faizal and irah...we went to sit at playground then we talk talk...after a few mins we go home....wait for bus so long siah...the long bus came late...then inside bus i sit beside Irah...i joke with her but she kuar merajuk siah....then send her to MRT station...while at MRT station she ignored me...well i jus leave after 10 mins...she ignore so i leave lor....tats all for todae...now at home updating and wating to log off and eat my durian...hahahaks....sweet durians...see you guys tomorrow...jus wanting for ikah toaccept me...but she feel guilty as irah also like me...but irah kuat merajuk.....i prefer to be with Ikah....
Hidup MaTi NaSh_IkAh...hahaaks...

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Tuesday, August 22, 2006
4:35 PM

.............todae is quiet fun at skool....laugh laugh laugh and joke all the way round...non stop....at skool nazarie make so many joke then akmal fight with sonia and seri....hahaks....akmal kutuk seri and sonia till they are mad....poor akmal kena scratch by seri....hahaha....serve him right for messing with seri....lolx....we win sufi team at soccer 7-1....so many score siah....so dumb siah they play..lose to us 7-1...mepek skills and tactic...my team never been to Sport And Art Fest also can win them....i thought my class were only good at floorball but we are damm good at soccer also....unbeatable liao.....hahah...shyt on those Tech....lol.....well tats all....byes byes now

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Monday, August 21, 2006
3:44 PM

todae nothing to do but jus put my wish list

*Get a good job and lead a happy life
*Marry ikah and lead a happy life
*Go back to Australia with my fren and live there with them
*Make my mum proud of me


tats all my wish list
Now is my bestfren list
First favourite

*Ikah
*Irah
*Cristy
*Karim
*Hasif
*Aliff

Second favourite
*Amirah
*Maisarah
*Nadia
*Seri
*Ina
*Iskandar
*Naz
*Adi
*Faiz
*Afiq



Most Haters

*Siti
*Ana
*Shah
All those Lil Fcukers in Sec 1 who Hates me

Wanna be in one of these list?
well be good or be bad to me
you can be in one of them =)

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Sunday, August 20, 2006
6:03 PM

........todae was boring....had to go dun know where but in Bukit panjang.....so boring...mother bring me there....then i go out with my bikers fren to esplanade.....see them for a half and hour then go home cause not so many people there and no race tonight....wanna talk to ikah but she went out cause her sister bdae....happy bdae to her sister....im very borin here at home writing tis stupid blog...not stupid la but im stupid....i dun know wat the fcuk im doing...i dun knoe whether to choose who....i wont stead with irah....and i want to broke up with Yana....well i dun knoe wat to do...well i guess im jus gonna sit here and wait for ikah to pick me up....
i want to be in her arms....want to feel the loved by her....tats all i have to say...take care peeps..
welll if anyone read tis please keep it to urself and blow all over.....

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Saturday, August 19, 2006
5:47 PM

Todae was tiring....i had NCC,Takraw,and Malay Dance...Malay Dance?ohh hell yeah..i joined the Malay Dance group...as i want to spend lesuire time...boring at home....me,azri and asif joined it....we had fun dancing and laughing.....We all had our own dance partner....my dance partner was maisarah,asif dance partner was atikah....the instructor was damm funny but like gurl-gurl..
no offence la...tats wat all of them say...but i think hes not so gurl-gurl....well after the dance i went home with ikah asif and other malay dance students...i drop at sun plaza as i was late... i got meeting with Hady....he wanted to see me because of my fren bike....
well tats all i have to say...run along now

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Thursday, August 17, 2006
8:32 PM

todae is damm fun.....airah kiss me on the cheek.....she really mean wat she says.....well i hope she really mean to love me like her kiss.....i dun want to be betrayed again....NevEr FaiLeD aGaiN......TodAe go PoLy is fun.....at bus i sit beside cristy....we talk a lot....talk about cristy ex boy fren,faiz and also adi.....then reach there....we had so much fun at treasure hunt.....we got 6th place and got a chocolate.....thanx Singapore Poly...really appreciate it a lot.....inside bus we talk talk and drink...seri belanja us all drink from pizza hut....finally and first time she treat us a drink......now im sitting here waiting for the singapore idol result show....i hope tomorrow she will kiss my again....heheheks.....i adore her as my adeq and soon by my gurl....well tats all....i gtg now and sleep and do the housework.....after tat iron my clothes and go to bed bed bed......

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Monday, August 14, 2006
4:06 PM

...........todae not so much fun......while waiting for Yana,she come so late....i waited for more then 30 mins.....then she didnt came....so i walk to to school with atikah as hanafi also was late.....then i saw her inside bus so she wait for me at the school bus-stop.....she jus ignore me so i ignore her also...i jus walk to schoool with atikah.....well at school dennis make joke with teacher as tat chye drew a whiteboard marker on dennis shirt.....dennis was so furious with her....she was jus relax...she ignore dennis infact she jus move along with her lesson...dennis threw her papers away and keep irritate her.....the whole class laugh and ran away during recess.....
after school i quickly ran out of malay class but ikah keep holding me back....she kept holding my bag....i wanna run to see miss ng as i wanted to give her my NCC uniform....
luckily i was early miss ng waited for me.....then i walk to general office to see ikah send my key to the office.....after tat when to shop and buy drink and sum food....Yana waited for me at the bus-stop.....i went home with her....but she jus kept quiet....she didnt talk much....i was the only one who start most conversation....i feel different......she feel like not talking to me....
well now im damm furious with sum kid(my adeq angkat)....
i did everything she told me to do....but i jus ask her to do for me a few things and she memberontak.....wat the frog man.......welll wtf tat is i dun care....i feel so satiated right now....
i dun knoe wat is gotten into her....she is like ignoring me......not Yana......my adeq angkat is ignoring me.....well wat ever it is i will ignore her also if she ignore me.....

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...........todae not so much fun......while waiting for Yana,she come so late....i waited for more then 30 mins.....then she didnt came....so i walk to to school with atikah as hanafi also was late.....then i saw her inside bus so she wait for me at the school bus-stop.....she jus ignore me so i ignore her also...i jus walk to schoool with atikah.....well at school dennis make joke with teacher as tat chye drew a whiteboard marker on dennis shirt.....dennis was so furious with her....she was jus relax...she ignore dennis infact she jus move along with her lesson...dennis threw her papers away and keep irritate her.....the whole class laugh and ran away during recess.....
after school i quickly ran out of malay class but ikah keep holding me back....she kept holding my bag....i wanna run to see miss ng as i wanted to give her my NCC uniform....
luckily i was early miss ng waited for me.....then i walk to general office to see ikah send my key to the office.....after tat when to shop and buy drink and sum food....Yana waited for me at the bus-stop.....i went home with her....but she jus kept quiet....she didnt talk much....i was the only one who start most conversation....i feel different......she feel like not talking to me....
well now im damm furious with sum kid(my adeq angkat)....
i did everything she told me to do....but i jus ask her to do for me a few things and she memberontak.....wat the frog man....

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Sunday, August 13, 2006
6:05 PM

arghhhhh.......dam fcuk....uncle cut my hair....miss my hair....hair long already.....take 2 months to grow it and then its gone within a few minutes.....shyt shyt shyt.....sob sob....my hair gone.....
maybe its gonna take me a few more months to longer it....well todae borin siah...nothing to do...
Yana not online but i talk to Dzul....hahaha....siti perasaan....Dzul dun like her....Dzul already have a gurlfren......wat a paiseh siah tat gurl....wait till she knows about it....well i dun know wat to write....take care all...see my hair tomorrow at skool and exam also.....wish me luck

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Saturday, August 12, 2006
6:14 PM

hey hey hey.....jus finish eating my ice-cream......todae im going out with my fam to esplande
enjoying lifetime together...long time never enjoy with fam...well tats all
im late already

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Friday, August 11, 2006
3:10 PM

wei hey hey.....sup peeps....woohhooo....jus came home early and become crazy already.....
long time never came home early on fridae...usually got takraw or NCC.....been busy lately in skool.....early in the morning come to skool with YaNa......waited for her for only 3 mins and she came...jus nice....walk to skool with her....talk also feel like wat seh....idk wat to say much to her....she jus keep quiet and keep banging onto me.....i know she wants me to hold her...but i feel akward talking and wanna hold her hand.....maybe i'll jus try on mondae.....everydae i feel my love for her is getting much more and more loving...im touched by her....she keeps my company....to bad todae she has CCA and i cant wait for her as i promise my mum i would go home early to cook for her...poor mother is sick.....even if i hate her,she is still my mum.....
i wont ditched her.....she my only parent tat care for me....even she isnt my biological mother....
still i wont have any harsh feeling....there may be sumtimes....but its all for my own good.....
my adeq cristy broke up with her boyfren joseph....pity her siah....cristy cristy dun cry leh......
i dun like to see you cry.....i dun like to see any of my adeq cry either......seri also at class like sad sad....all very sadist....bring my mood down.....no mood to eat also jus now...not even play soccer....didnt even give maisarah present....i completely forget to give her...i bought it already but forget to give her......jus wish her all the best and happy 14th bdae.....
Yana Yana Yana where were you when i need you.....jus call my when u get home form ur CCA...
miss your voice.......i hope she is at good terms with Ana and Siti.....dun want them to fight...
well it all has to end tis way..... theres always a nightmare behind every happiness......
jus like me....every time im happy theres always sumone sad close-by or sumone sad is me.....
well take care to all readers and good luck for your common test peeps.....

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Thursday, August 10, 2006
6:10 PM

wooohoooo....woke up early tis morning at 5.30...dunnoe do wat....jus woek up and clean the house.......then listen to song on my mp3....wait until 9.30 to cal airah...she wants to talk to me regarding her ex boyfren.....well as a bro ive to lend my ears to my adeq.....Yana dear never call me...only talk to her at msn for 10 mins...then she when offline...i dun know why...but it seems tat im drifting away....things werent the same....ive strive so hard for the day...but now it all shattered.....all ive discovered another gurl like me also....oh well tis is all crap.....5 gurls like me in 1 month.....you gotta be kiddin me god??!is tis a test or is tis retribution.....my head is full of hectic now...starting to think much about Yana...she seems getting away from me...i think she is stress of her frens attitude....those lilttle brats....i prefer bytchs.....they still not gonna stop disturbing and messing with my life.....im gonna solve it one day and they will suffer when i do tat.....Yana Yana i'll love you dearly...jus gimme the chance.....im srry Fie,munirah,siti and airah ive let ya down...i cant accept all of you....ive chosen yana to be with me...infact i hope till i die and for internity.....hope this dae is getting better and better.....as for ikah i wont interfere with her relationship anymore...i wont telll her anything even if i know it...jus keep it to myself....
dun want people to say im jelous of tis and tat shyt......all when tis is all over Yana and me can enjoy our life....looking forward to go to skool with her tomorrow.....i hope her CCA end fast cause i wanna go home woth her also....
tats all todae
wanna go out with my bros.....go have fun at EAst Coast

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Wednesday, August 09, 2006
2:01 PM

wah long time never update my blog and online at msn....very sian siah.....200+ email...so tiring to erase all.....
well jus found sumone tat i truly loved and loved me....her name is Yana....love her lots and lots and lots....
she will be the new me +)......i dun know wat to say as my head blank...hahaha
maybe i'll update again tomorrow....take care peeps

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Tuesday, August 01, 2006
5:46 PM

well i had fun todae peeps.....See YaNa At ThE BuS-StOp At AroUnD 6.55 aM....Well ShE WaS EaRlY....I PrOmIse To MeEt At 7 But I CaMe At 6.50 ShE WaS AlReAdY ThErE.....So SwEeT Of HeR To WaIt FoR Me....
Im NoT GoNnA LoVe FiE As AzRi My FrEn LiKe HeR......BeTteR GiVe FiE To AzRi......PiTy AzRi As He HaD No GuRlFrEn......AnD I DuN WaNnA LoSe FrEnShIp.....AzRi LoVe HeR MoRe ThEn I Do....So Im EnTrUsTinG Fie To AzRi.......Im Up To YaNa.....I ReAllY LoVeS HeR.....wEll Im GoNna SoUnD HeR TomOrRoW......HoPe ShE WoNt ReJeCt It.....I AiNt GoNnA LeAvE HeR EvEr......ShE Will Be ThE NeW Gurl I LoVe JuS LiKe My AdoRaBlE AdEq....Well As FoR TaT GuY He AiNt GoNna BeAt Me I GuEsS.....He SaId If He BeAtS Me It AiNt HiS FaUlT....
Well He Got It All Wrong......its his fault....YaNa didnt want him already....so he can buzz of.....who the fcuk asked him to ignroe YaNa......tats the reason why YaNa broke up with him...and tHe SeconD rEaSon is taT YaNa liKes Me LoNg TiMe AgO.....TaTs EnD It All.....Im Damm sure he will beat me up tomorrow...he already told my sister to give me warning....well i dun give a damm on wats gonna happen to me....if he touch me or YaNa,He Will BeAr thE conSeQueNcEs.....BlAcK MeTaL KiD Will come to our skool and give him a huge surprise.....HiS MuM WoNt EvEn RecognisE HiS FaCe......If He WaNt To see the eViL siDe of Me he BetTeR be prEpAre for it....Cause once i Turn BaD...It Will Be The SaMe Old MaRsHall To Be HiS NiGhTmArE......


Pay the price,
cant change porridge when it change into rice,
you wont want to me me rise....
as you dun want to be the dead mice

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